Journaling...

I have been reading through my journal recently, and have been making a conscious effort to journal more consistently as I used to do. I love to journal, it is a way to pour my heart out to my Lord, and I really enjoy looking back over what I have written and seeing how the Lord has answered prayers, addressed concerns, and ministered to my needs and hurts. It is a great reminder of the faithfulness of my Lord and of His concern and love for me...

While reading back through my journal this week I came upon this entry and felt led of the Lord to share it here... it is a bit of a devotion from Streams in the Desert that really spoke to me. It led me to ask myself these questions...

Am I:

1. Willing to be nothing so Christ may be everything?
2. Fully accepting God's purposes as my own?
3. Receiving Christ's humility, faith, love and power yet never hindering God's plan but always allowing Him to continue His miraculous work?

"God, and He alone, became my all in all. In Him I found everything I needed, and I desired nothing else. By God's grace, my understanding of His sufficiency has remained to this day, making me an exceedingly happy man. It has led me to care only about the things of God." George Mueller (from Streams in the Desert, July 18)

Can you say as George Mueller said, that "in Him I found everything I needed, and I desired nothing else"? That is my current pursuit... I want to desire nothing but my Lord... nothing else will satisfy me like He will...

A Journal Entry...

I was reading through my journal from this past year earlier in the week and thought I would share the following entry from June of this year...

Thank You Father God that You are a perfect God - and that You do not expect me or need me to be perfect. In fact, You need me to give in to the weakness/or be weak (so to say) so that Your strength can be demonstrated in my weaknesses - and so that You get glorified.

Thank You, that You are continually day by day sanctifying me - to one day make me perfect - when I get to be with You in glory!!

Please deliver me from the mentality that I need to be the perfect wife, perfect mom, perfect housekeeper, perfect cook - and help me to be who You have called me to be, totally dependent on You to make me into someone who brings You glory.

This then followed my journal entry:

God gave me twins:

• To make me and keep me humble
• So that through my weakness He could be strong
• To drive me to Him more
• To bless me
• To help me learn to give thanks in ALL things
• To help me learn to be joyful in the midst of stress
• So that I would never think "I've got it all handled - I am supermom!"

How I praise Him that He has and is delivering me from my thinking that I need to be perfect, for I can do nothing good apart from Him. Anything good I do as a wife, mom, friend, sister, daughter, or any other role I have, is because of Christ working in and through me. He is my all and all, and I desperately need Him daily!

How about you? Do you journal? If so, look back over them from time to time and see what God has done in your life... it will increase your faith